No matter how sweet I am and how much I help people, and get told this by people all the time, they just screw me over the next second. Why do I keep helping? Why do I just let people step all over me but still help with their every demand?
I thought everything had finally, after 2 months, fallen in to place. We had the talk we were afraid to have. We accepted how we were feeling. I thought the hot and cold treatment would be over for these last two and a half weeks. But the answer is no. The cold treatment is almost worse this time because I thought we had finally figured it out. But now I am getting even more rejected than I have ever been. I have started thinking, oh, I am never gonna see him again. No matter what he says. Because he doesn't really want to. Is it because of what I said, and he doesn't feel the same so he is just taking advantage of me?? Probably.
Yesterday I actually admitted to a friend that I would rather have it was her who was still here. That she hadn't already gone back home. I'm going to her though no doubt. She has a list of all the things we are gonna do when I come there and I am not allowed to see it before I'm there! She is the sweetest and I just feel so calm and happy around her. It might not be crazy heart-beating love that makes me so nervous I can't talk, like it is with him. But isn't comfortable, nice, relaxing love much better than one that hurts so bad I wanna punch things?
He promised me he wouldn't hurt me. He said to my face, "I don't wanna hurt you" .. Then why is that the only thing you are doing? Why don't you even try to not hurt me? Why is it just hurt upon hurt? I used to think he didn't know he was doing it. But he kinda admitted that he did know, so what the hell man? I'm sure it's because he doesn't feel the same. Despite the fact he literally said, while laying next to me, looking at me, "will you be my girlfriend? Even when I go back?" and when I stupidly answered yes to both questions he said "nice". Then why the fuck are you like this? I was pretty sure from the beginning he wasn't asking for real, and now I have been proved he wasn't. Such a great feeling tbh. Thank you for also playing with me. That hasn't happened enough in my life. The first real love I have felt for someone in 6 years and it's just like all the other times it has happened.

I don't care my education anymore, don't know what I am doing it for. Love only plays with me. I have pretty much no money, can't even really buy food. What am I supposed to do with life? Is this it? Because I don't want it. Can't see the point of it. But I am also not down in the ditch so much that I wanna end it... Because there is one thing I am looking forward. I can't wait to go see her. Can't wait to get on that airplane and just spend time with her. She is my anchor in this moment.

Here we go again

I've been having a hard period in my life again. I have now found out some reasons why it was hard before and why I acted like I did. I'm been trying to tell some people what had happened to me and what was going on with me, because I thought people who also had some trouble could understand and be supportive.
But as always the answer is no. No one gives a shit about me. No matter how much I have helped them in the past, nobody is willing to understand or support when I am going through a tough time. People just say heartless things to me and when I say, hey not cool, they play it off as I'm joking. When I then tell them that what they have said or  done actually hurt me, well they have the audacity to try and guilt trip me. Listen you fucking idiot, it's not my problem that you get hurt and cry because YOU said something insensitive. DO NOT try to put that on my court.
I haven't had a bad period for like, over a year at least, if not longer! I have been happy and supportive of others and listened to their problems, however small, and tried to help them with it. BUT of course, I say I am not doing well now, after a loooong time and need some understanding and support, and what do I get? Nothing. OR, people being annoyed with me for not feeling okay.
I am sick and tired of people and myself. Don't everyone think that I am MUCH MORE sick and tired of my brains bullshit than they are??? Like do they even understand I have to live with everything?? Even the things I don't say because it's too dark and I don't think they can handle it.
I still listen to their problems and all the things they talk about, even when I am feeling like shit. But that favor cannot ever be returned apparently. It never has and never will.
I am having very very very bad thoughts and could sometimes just use a little bit of support, instead of constantly being pushed away. Tbh at this point, I very much question why am I still here?? Nobody would give two shits if I weren't apparently. Well yes I know my mum would and perhaps she is the reason I am trying so hard.
But I am so so so so so tired. And it's very hard for me to not just give up.

Shitty "lovers"

Ok, I've never gone so far to a point where I was actually lovers with anyone. Girlfriend/Boyfriend is as far as I've gotten. But still, I'm sick and tired of me only being able to get shitty girlfriends and boyfriends. I mean, usually when you have a girlfriend or a boyfriend, they care for you, and in the beginning they just can't leave you alone because you're their everything. well.. frist of, no ones ever been all over me! The only one who has, and the only person I've actually ever been in love with, well, there were some circumstances that made it impossible for us to be together. So yeah. Actually the only boyfriend who ever really cared for me and tried to help me and such was my first boyfriend, and that's fucking amazing because.. I really had problems back then, but he was there for me when I needed it. He never backed off and didn't make me feel alone, except for one time, but hey, everybody makes mistakes! my second boyfriend and first girlfriend, tore me apart with their none caring. They were the most selfish people I think I've ever met, but yet somehow I'm glad I was with them before thos, because my current girlfriend, well.. she treats me the same way as those two did, not as extremely fortunately, but it's still enough. I know she has problems too, and I'm not allowed to know about them even though I'm willing to help. I'm always willing to listen and help. I don't care how long it goes on for, as long as I feel loved and appreciated. but I don't.. She doesn't in any way make me feel that. I know I should just say it's over, but she says she has some things she wants to talk through with me... wtf, I should be the one saying that.. well anyways, I have to wait another two weeks until that point. I guess I'll just not talk to her until then, it seems like that's the way she is going with this, so yeah, I don't care anymore, I think I'll tell her it's over when she is done saying what she wants to tell me.

*sigh*

At days like this, I feel all alone.. left out... I feel like I have no interaction with anyone.. I... sometimes when my friends say something or do something, I get upset, I don't know why, and somehow yet I do.. because my dreams are far from here and their dreams are right here.. I feel so alone.. My dreams flew that far away because I'm not use to having friends who actually care or like me all that much.. I usually get ditched just after I get attached.. therefore I shaped my dreams all alone.. but now... now I want nothing more than to let those dreams go and stay right here even though it will hurt and I know I will regret it.. I really don't know which foot to take a step with.. which path I should take.. I feel stuck and want out, but yet somehow I can't.. Everytime I think about what I should do, what I WANT to do, I have to stop, neither my brain nor heart know where to go.. what to do.. If I don't go, I wont be able to do anything.. but if I do go. I could loose everything I've finally gotten... but somehow I feel I shouldn't feel this way.. I mean I love my friends soo much, but do they love me? Even though they say they miss me and love me.. I've been through this before, and those people I finally told my secrets, my darkness, they'd abandon me, leaving me all alone.. feeling lost.. I feel that, if I follow my dreams now, I'll abandon them.. they wont be lost though, 'cause they've got a lot of other things and friends, but.. Is that really what I want? I'm not good at sharing especially not friends, mostly because.. It always feels like they know each other more and talk to each other more than they do with me, and that upsets me, even though I know it shouldn't 'cause that's usually not how it is.. and yet I'm too dumb to actually see it..



I guess I just have to make a choice, and then make sure that nothing falls apart.. If other people can do it.. why can't I? ^^

Rain is over and out~~ and I'll always remember to smile!

OMG I'm alive! o.o

yeah, it came as a suprise for me too xDD I'm still here xDD
it's almost been 5 months since my last entry o.o I'm starting to become like Tora, no wait, it's been like a year since his last entry xDD anyways, I haven't written because, well I don't know, I mean a lot has happened, both good and bad.. but I don't know xDD

anyways people!!
to start of, I got 12 (the highest score in my country) in my Japanese exam, WOOP WOOP! and me who thought it was gonna go soo bad, 'cause I suck at everything, well, I think I found one thing I don't suck completely at, yaiiz xDD *pats myself on shoulder* my dad was also all like, why did you say you were bad at it? xDD
my mum is really preaparing for the vacation o.o she is determined to learn the proper way to say hello and thanks in any given situation, aww that's kinda sweet ^&^ and when we were planning what to do while in Japan just casually, she was like, I wanna see that, and that, and that, OH AND THAT TOO!! and it ended up she had more things than me o.o WHAT!?!? how is that possible? >.> I asked my dad too, what he wanted to see and all he said was, Tokyo Fire station ^&^ it's kinda cute :3 for those of you who don't know, my dad is a firefighter and have been for a about 26 years now ^^ so on vacations our goal is always to find the firestations and take pictures of them wherever we are ^&^

for work, wow, I work so much, and yet it's just normal hours anyway WTF xDD but it feels like I have no freetime, mostly because I only have one day off at the time >:<

music wise, the new DOGgy single got shipped yesterday o. CAN'T WAIT!! >.< + the 3 versions of Alice Nine's new single will be shipped like a week from now =(^.^)=

I'm gonna write more, so I can get things in more detail XDD not that anyone but me really cares, 'cause I believe all my readers has stopped reading xD

anyways, keep safe people!! and don't forget to smile ^&^
Rain is over and out ^v^

O.O

OK WTF!! it's been aaagggeess since the last time o.o that is soo not ok!! damnit!! xDD ANYWAYS, a lot of nice things has happened already, and the year just fucking started xDD

I have bought the tickets to the Final Fantasy concert in November ^&^ <3>
This week I'm gonna buy the plane tickets to Tokyo baby!!! *dances around like crazy*

yesterday I was in Copenhagen with my bithces XDDDD yes, I call people I love that because I'm pathetic xDD Even though I've been sick for almost a week now, I haven't really felt it bacause of all the stuff I've been doing, very nice indeed xDD


I think I'll stop already, because.. I can't really say with words how happy I am at the moment, and it's gonna sound retarded if I keep going, I just know it XDDD


See ya, and don't forget to smile!!
Rain is over and out~

OMFG!!!!!!!

IT'S TOO GOOD TO BE TRUE!! DISTANT WORLDS IS COMING TO LONDON NEXT YEAR!!! FUCK YES!! I'm soo going!! I could cry, I'm that happy right now ;______; I was at the concert in Stockholm on 12th of June this year, and it was soo.. damn it was amazing, and it was in the middle of my exam periode, which wasn't so good, 'cause I couldn't focus at all after that concert, I could only think about it xDD I think that's why I did soo poorly, but that doesn't matter, Final Fantasy is more important to me than life itself xDD

I know I haven't updated in like, a month xDD or wait, it's almost two isn't it o.o xDDD anyways, my life isn't really that exciting, and that is why xD
the most exciting things is, of course the news about the Distant worlds concert, but also the fact, that my FF collection almost is complete, only missing a few games, yaaaiizz ^&^v also, it's my birthday on friday xDD haha xDD woop woop xDD
but omg, the only thing I can think about right now.. is that concert *____* oh wait, also the fact that in the summer vacation next year, I'm going to Japan for 2 weeks xDD I know it sounds crazy saying this, but it almost slipped my mind, because I'm that excited for that freaking concert damnit!! xDDD


but now I'm gonna go, 'cause work calls once again xDD I work waayy too much compared to my contract, but screw that.. MONEEEYY!! xDDD

over and out!!! hope you too is as happy as me xDDD haha xDDD

school started! ^&^v

yesterday my Japanese class started again! ^&^v <3>
I was so excited about it, 'cause I really missed it and the lovely people!
I must admit that it was a really good start, there was no awkwardness in seeing these people again, and they all just talked to me, like I had been in the class last year also, even though I only was there for like 4 months or so :3
anyways, the class I'm attending is now Japanese B-level practiced. uhhhh xDDD my teacher was like, if you ever meet one of those from the beginner class, make them bow for you xDDDD
In our breaks in there, me and Eva-san totally raped our teacher's computer with Japanese child songs, AND kokkiman xDDDDDD and for the rest of the evening me and signe-san kept singing, Mary-san no Hitsuji xDDDDDDD come on, it's a good song xDDD
we also played a hiragana and katakana game to see if we hopefully hadn't forgotten them all xDDD fortunately, we hadn't XDD though I must admit that when you haven't practiced almost all summer, some of the katakana was a bit fuzzy xDDD
we also got our first assingment which we have to finished till next class so we can write it in on the computer and turn it in to the school, and there is like only 7 assingments left this year, woop woop xDDD

on our way home, me and signe-san.. well we got a bit too happy I don't now, but we were clearly hyperactive, and we invented this mutant sheep which will come and eat other sheeps, and also humans sometimes xDD it's like 2 feet tall and ways a 1000 pounds XDDDDDD
I'm already really looking forward to next Japanese class, I can't wait for it to be wednesday :3

oh btw, work is awesome!! I work alot, and I get alot of money of course XDD soo I've got the money to buy all the lovely games that I'm craving to get xDDD actually the only one I'm missing right now is Persona 4 xDDD
currently I'm playing:

FF VIII (again xDD) I'm on disc 4 xDD
Dissidia: Final Fantasy.I'm in chapter 3 of the shade impulses.
Crisis Core -Final Fantasy VII- I actually just finished it, but then started a new game xDD
Final Fantasy I. I could actually just go and kick the crap out of the last boss, BUT I want to do the four cave thingys also, 'cause I want to complete, the ENTIRE game and not just some off it xDD


games I've yet to play:
Persona 3 (Bought, waiting)
Suikoden V (Bought, waiting)
Final Fantasy II (I have it XD I will start once I finsish FF I )
Final fantasy tactics (Bought waiting)

and ALOT of others, which I haven't bought yet, 'cause they are not out yet, OR I don't have the console yet >.<


and well, that's pretty much it for now xDDD

HAHA!!!

I'm sitting here wondering about what people think of me, I reached this conclusion;
Bitchy, hateable, annoying, full of shit and such, and you know what? I DON'T CARE!! I'm me, not some fake, everybody-loves-me human. I say the things I wanna say and do things the way I want to do them.
and with that said I just got something funny on my mind, I was at this convention this weekend, and well, I saw my ex, many times, and whenever he looked at me, it was like, he was starring and was turning his head after me, I couldn't help but smile xDDDD

I song I listen to all the time at the moment;
Heartsdales - candypop feat. SOUL'd OUT

seriously it's soo catchy and plays on repeat on my computer the most of the time I listen to music xDDD

and yeah I got nothing more, just wanted to update something, 'cause I suck at this xDDD

Final Fantasy freak!

yup, that's what I am and have been for a very long time!! I started being fascinated by Final Fanatasy series when I was about 8 or 9 years old ^^ since then the love for it has only grown deeper and deeper <3> and since I'm pretty bored I decieded to make this "love list" if you can call it that, with my fav. of all kinds of things xDD so lets just start ^&^


first of

fav. game overall:
well, I have two. FF IX and FF VIII, I can't really chose between those two ^&^













Fav. game story wise :
ok, this is a tough one, hmm the story I felt the saddest and actually cried a lot was FF IX, so I'm gonna go with that ^&^


Fav. game character wise :
ok a lot of final fantasy characters, actually most of them are kick ass! but if it has to be all of the characters then, hmm, I think it must be FF VIII, because they are not emo with a lousy reason of something like that, to me they are most, like real people, if you look at all of them ^&^ and there really isn't any boring ones where you just sit, omg get it over with ^&^


Fav. character FF V : ('cause I can't really remember that many from ealier games, sorry ;___; )
I know he is like the main character but Bartz is just soo YES! XD come on, who doesn't love Bartz and his kind of playful self? xD












Fav. Character FF VI :
No doubt it's Kefka!!!! he's such an awesome villian xDD without him I think FF VI would have been too.. you know serious and all that, don't know why, but yeah, and humor is such a big part of the FF universe, so it has to be there!! >.< and I mean come on, who can't love and laugh at his insanity? xD












Fav. character FF VII :
III don't know actually xDD there's not a lot of characters I really like in this game o.o but I will say Yuffie, 'cause yeah, I like her the most xDD













Fav. Character FF VIII :
this.. is really tough o.o so I will say it's someone who no one expects it to be.... FUJIN!! seriously, her one word, caps lock sentences just kill me XDD I love her! ^&^













Fav. Character FF IX :
it's a chracter who in the Japanese version is a woman and for some reason on the english version it's a guy! o.o who made that mistake!? XDD if you still hasn't guesseed who it is, it's Kuja! damn I love him.. her.. whatever xD I feel so bad for him/her all the time and I just wanna hug him/her ;____; and I'm glad that Zidane still cares about him/her even though he/she is like, If I'm gonna die, you all go with me! very nice for it not to be cliché on that part! ^&^













Fav. character FF X :
ok.. I have no idea xD I don't really hate anyone or love anyone, again I will say someone totally unexpected xDD she's not in the game very much, but I will say Tidus' mum xDDDD don't ask why xDD
I can't really find a picture of his mum, which is a shame, 'cause she's really pretty ^&^


I wont make it longer than this, 'cause I don't really like the newer games that much, and hasn't finished anyone of them, fail x.x I wil though I promise!! and Lightning is hot yes xD


just one last one
Fav. Dissidia Final Fantasy voice! :
KUJA!!! damn that voice suits him so well *____* I actually screamed with joy when I first heard it xDD so yeah, really good pick for him! ^&^v


the end for now, I think I'll make a music one later, perhaps, don't know, but know I'm gonna go play some final fantasy!! xDD

Rain is over and out!~

tired..

I'M SO TIRED OF YOU!!
would you please stop copying me, idiot!?
and just so you know, no I fucking don't like you, OK!? I think you are annoying as hell and the biggest loser on the entire planet! fuck off!

amazing..

it's amazing how quickly you can be forgotten and not really be IT anymore.. but that's the destiny of me xDD seriously, everytime I find someone who I just have an amazing time with, then I show them something, a new band, or kind of fashion or something like that, they become totally obsessed with it and soon I'm nearly forgotten, wtf thanks dudes XD it has happened to me soo many times now XD I should learn to just keep my mouth shut xDD
that is why, I, myself, have become my own best friend XDD 'cause me, I can always count on, oh hell yeah, I aint going nowhere ^&^ besides when I'm going to Japan, it's gonna be fun, being away half a year, and then come back and really have no friends at all xDD 'cause I know that's how it's gonna be, people will forget me and stop caring, but it wont affect me anymore, I've learned to deal with it, just so you know XDD
and now I'm gonna stop 'cause, yeah, HAHAHA XDD

by the way, people may not think this is how it is, but let's face reality, we all know it is ^^
but I will keep smiling, 'cause my dreams are the most important things I have, and no one can take them away from me!!
oh and just because I'm not that close with people, I can still talk to them, it's like me saying, you all suck go away, no, I'm just being realistic and some people are also not invovled in this, even though it may point that way, just so you guys know it's not everyone I've showed something new that this has happened with ^&^ oh wait, it's only one person this does not concern, oh what the hell xDDD

Rain is out with a big smile~ ^&^

O.W.A.R.I.

my hectic week has started!! yaaaaaiiizz xDD
Today I was at the school getting my question arc for my last final!! which is only in some hours!!! woop woop!! then I'll be a graduate!!! O.O so amazing, I never thought, that someone with as a retarded mind as me could actually gradute and go on out in the big world XDD but I did it!! XDD
so yeah tomorrow, I will go to my final exam, which english xDD piece of cake XDD I'm not saying that I will get a good grade or anything, I just find english very easy, without even trying to make it good I can get the third best grade in but written and spoken english, so yeah xDD well after that half an hour is finished, I can get my cap on!! and walk around all almighty like xDD
then in the evening, our graduate pictures will be taken and the graduation party will take place! :3 sooo looking forward to it ^&^

Thursday I will go out to celebrate the people who graduated from my Japanese class, by eating at the lovely japanese resturant Wagamama <3 the only bad thing is.. you know the world cup in soccer is going on right? well, because I have to go in there and eat, I can't watch the Denmark - Japan match ;_________; I'm so sad about that ;______________________________________________________;

then friday, we will get our graduation diplomas and drive around in a wagon for 12 hours, being drunk, YOSSHA!!! XDDD


not much more to say, other than tomorrow, will be such a good day, I can't even imagine it myself ^&^ *BIG SMILE*

Rain will now prepare to travel all around the world 8D

bored xDDD

so yeah, I've always had this big passion for music, and listened to it alot, BUT right now it's totally topping xDD I'm listening to it more than is healthy I think xD and I've also started listening to a lot of new bands, soo yeah, this is a little blog thingy about my new and old pleasures of music! ^&^



DOGinTheパラレルワールドオーケストラ



they're a pretty new band, but they have surely sweeped of my feet!! they are really amazing! their music is soo catchy, and you just want to hear the songs over and over again!! <3<3 and their random crazyness is perfect iceing on the top <3 Haru's vocals are just wonderful and captivating <3
Fav. song: can't really pick anyone XDD but the three I listen to the most is: WONDERxWONDER, 絶頂highスピーカー and ハルシオンキャンディ ^&^

TOON-FACTORY



also pretty new, started in 2008 ^&^ their music is pretty steady and has some awesome riffs so you can easily destinquish the songs from each other <3 also very catchy and leaves you longing for more! <3
Fav. song: サヨナラ、バイバイ。


アリス九號. (Iknow it's not their name anymore, but Alice Nine is just plain boring XD )



WOW is my only comment xDD <3<3 I don't know why my obsession with this lovely band didn't start much earlier! seriously! fail from my side XDD anyways they're really amazing <3<3 and Shou-san's vocals are soo original if you can say that, he has this deep but still pretty sounding voice, he often sings kind of edgy, so when you first hear the note it sounds off-key, BUT you find out it's actually not, and I just love it soo much <3<3
Fav. song: ARMOR RING <3<3<3<3<3<3 such an amazing song!!! really!!! I love all their songs, but ARMOR RING just have that little bit extra pow ^&^ <3<3<3



so yeah, that's my obsessions at the moment <3<3<3<3 I love it, and I hope that it will keep on going for a very long time xDDD <3<3<3

Rain is over and out~
SMILE PEOPLE, SMILEEEEE!!!!!

bleh.

I feel soo alone, and I'm sad all the time, even though I say I'm soo happy, well I may be that on the outside, but on the inside.. I'm just all over the place, feeling lost, the people I love and really try to give something to all the time, well they barely seem to like me.. they may write hearts and stuff like that, but it seems soo fake.. try saying I love you, or I need you, or I miss you, or something like that, FIRST! don't just say it because I said it.. but no one ever says it to me.. and I see how they have fun with everyone else, and always mentions them.. but... I know I'm just whining and complaining, but sometimes it would be nice to just get a little bit of acknowledgement ^^




but yeah, I promise I will always smile <3 ~

well...

ok, so yesterday.. was my last day of "college" or whatever it's called XDD it was suppose to be fun, and we were suppose to be retarded, but my class, well let's just say I was the only one who had dressed up in funny clothes >.> and they were all sooo uptight and was like, I don't wanna run around and make a fool of myself.. OH SHUT UP FOR CHRIST SAKE!!!! why do you have to be sooo fucking grown up? you guys just turned either 18 or 19... if you already wanna act like adults then I'm glad I'm never going to speak to you guys again!! how boring can it get x.x seriously, I NEVER wanna be like that, if I end up like that, I will kill myself, and I mean it x.x
anyways after that we went down to this park where all the graduation classes were, and then we just drank the big bucket of liqour we had bought in Netto, which was rather fun xDD BUT the sun was in my face, and well I had no sun protection thingy on, soo my face is now all red and burning, greaaaaatttt xDD and because I also got sun on my arms, they are itching like hell, god damnit!! xDDD
when it was a little past 5pm we came to the resturant where we were suppose to eat before going to the party at the school, and the was fuuuuun xDD and the food was delicious as always <3
then at 7pm the party started at the school, BUT as always you are never there from the beginning, we were at someone from my classes place, and we sat drinking, and the suddenly, Sissi, Tanja, Sine and me realized that everyone had moved table and we were sitting all alone, why thank you xDD but we just started playing a drinking game then, and daaaamnn it was hella hilarious XDD at 9pm us four decided to go to the party at the school, so we did xDD and we danced for like a looooong time and just had fun, until it got boring and we went down into town to see if there was more going on there... but there wasn't xDD soo we went home, after getting something to eat.
on the way home, this song came on the radio http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-01GCGhFGVU .. and Sine suddenly decided to put all other bodyparts into the chorus xDD daammnn, we laughed sooo hard xDDDD

today I'm going to celebrate my stepgrandmother's birthday party, by grilling at their place, yaaaiii! ^&^
and tomorrow Trine will come and stay till monday <3<3 sooo looking forward to it! ^&^

Remember to spread joy to those around you!
Rain is over and out~



<3<3

muhahahaha xDD

ok, it's been a long time since I last wrote something in here, faaaiiill xDD but yeah xDD

today I'm going to hand over my finished exam project at the school ^^ yaaaii xDDD but that also means that the examinations will begin very soon x.x daaamnnn, no god please save me!! can I please just have a black out that entire period of time? plleeaaassee xDD I don't wanna be present xDD

anyways, some things has happened.. like.. I've was at svs-con last weekend!! :3 it was very very very nice, or let's do it the Saga-chan way, bery bery nice... NIce xDD <3>
OH YEAH, speaking of Saga-san, TODAY.. yes today xD my alice nine. dvd will come home to mama! xDD haha xDD but I can't watch before after work sunday ;_____; daammnn xD because tommorow, yes tomorrow biatch, I'm going on BAKKEN!!! WOOOO!~ I love amusement parks! <3> even though, you may not think this, but I'm actually a chicken at first when it comes to rollercoasters and such xD BUT once people have forced me to go on, I loooove it! and usually wanna go again xDD haha xD

IIIIII... don't know what else to say, I'm blank, and really really hyper, 'cause today I'm going on a little picnic with the people who I'm also going to Bakken with tomorrow ^&^ <3>

ONLY 5 SCHOOL DAYS LEFT!!!!!!!!!!!

listen people.. Remember always to be super random and manly!! XD except for the men, please be more girly xDD <3>

Rain is over and ooouuuuuttt!!!~

J-dorama

well, today I was suppose to write/answer questions for my exam project, BUT my partner has not sent me the questions yet >.> sooo I've been doning other stuff xD like watching J-dorama <3<3>
at first I didn't know what to watch, 'cause yes, I'm a little bit picky when it comes to watching doramas and animes and such ^^; soo I couldn't really find one, soo I started watchig Proposal Daisakusen once again xD but after two episodes I was like, NO I need to watch someting new xD soo I searched around a bit on the homepage J-dorama home. AND I found this series called My Girl from 2009, I read the description and was like, ok this one, I need to try watching! I've only watched two episodes sooo far, BUT I LOVE!!! seriously, in those two episodes I've cried like like a waterfall xDD <3<3<3> it's really really good! I recommend evryone to watch it xD ^&^
if someone has a good idea on watch I should watch afterwards, please write a comment xD if you want some rerencens I will write the J-doramas I've seen now, please help me xD

Love Revolution (my first J-dorama o.o IT'S REALLY GOOD!!!) <3>
Mukodono 2003 <3>
Sore wa totsuzen arashi no you ni (one of my favs) <3<3<3>
Kurosagi <3>
Nobuta wo Produce (My fav.! ^&^ ) <3<3<3<3>
My boss, My Hero <3>
Zettai Kareshi <3>
Hana kimi <3>
Boku dake no madonna (also one of my favs) <3<3<3<3<3>
Strawberry on the shortcake <3>
Hotman <3<3<3<3<3>
Hotman 2 <3<3>
Proposal Daisakusen <3<3>
Stand up!!! <3<3>
Beautiful life <3<3<3<3<3>
wonderful life <3>
Great teacher Onizuka <3<3<3<3>
Orange Days <3<3<3>

so yeah, please help xD oh and I'm mostly about drama, not so much comedy and action and stuff like that, just drama xD J-dorama you know xD it lies in the name xDD haha xD
but now I will go back to watching My Girl <3<3>


マタね!!! (because my computers Japanese writing skills suck big time! xD )

Rain is over and out~

Wonderful wonder LM.C!

I know it's a bit late x.x BUT here goes nothing ^^

So yeah, the 6th of April, I was at the LM.C concert in Sweden at Fryhuset-klubben. It was really really really amazing and fantastic, I can’t describe it with words at all. It was much more awesome than the LM.C concert last year.. Maya was soo lovely, his English has gotten quite good, and easy to understand, but he is having a hard time making a sentences, but it was really cute :3
His Swedish however, has gotten really really good! There was like only one sentence we didn’t understand o.o it’s was soo cute! :3 Aiji however, he is still lacking some skill xD BUT his English was actually understandable xD amazing xD
Maya talked A LOT! Seriously, there was a billion MCs soo lovely :3 when he introduced the band before the encore we all died from Mayas stupidity xD seriously, he was all like “Keyboard…” *points at keyboard* “YAMAHA!” xDD <3 and again “Keyboard..” *points at keyboard* “Yamaha..” XDD Jun was dying xD <3 and then again he was like “drums…” *points at drums* “Yamaha..” xDD <3<3 and then he went to the bassist and he died when he found out that the bass also was a Yamaha xD he hadn’t noticed that before xD so of course, the bassist was also Yamaha xD he then was like, we are LM.C and the fans was all like. What about Aiji xD he then went over to Aiji and said “guitar… you know this guy?” *points at guitar* “Ibitsu..” and Aiji died, he thought he was going to be introduced probably I think xD
But the band for this tour is/was
Keyboard: Jun
Drums: Yuya
Bass: Ken chan
Guitar: Aiji of course xD
Vocal: Maya, duuh xD
Para para dancer/performer/whatever he is: Denki-man!! <3<3<3<3 (OF COURSE!! ) xD
They were just lovely together <3<3
Before I will write the setlist, I will write some of the cute and fail stuff they did <3
Aiji was failing at opening a Red bull, and it sprayed all over the stage floor xD well not all over, but you know xD
During one of the songs, Denki-man grabbed Maya’s ass and Maya was trying not to laugh too hard while singing <3
Well the Yamaha moments <3 xD
Whenever Maya talked actually <3<3
Before they played OH MY JULIET. Maya just stood there saying “are you Juliet? .. are you Juliet?” and everyone just went crazy, it was soo, aww (^^)/
Just the entire concert all in all <3<3<3
OK, so now for the setlist!! It’s not in the right order, ‘cause I seriously can’t remember it, I don’t know if I’ve got all the songs but yeah, I’ve tried!! xD so here we go ^&^
NO.9
GHOST HEART
Space wannabiez
pOlyLife
meteorion
Bell the CAT
Optimisland
Mosaique City
OH MY JULIET.
CRAZY A GO GO
JOHN
BOYS AND GIRLS
ROCK THE LM.C
Edo Funk
It’s a wonderful wonder world
DAYS
PUNKY HEART
METALLY
88
Chemical king-twoon
And all of the MCs XDD


as said I don't know if all the songs are there, but yeah xD

Rain is over and out ^&^

my brain is tired!!!

MY BRAIN IS FREAKING TIRED OF HEARING YOUR VOICE!!! you self-centered bitch, who thinks that you can what ever your mind comes up with.. WAKE UP! this is reality, not a fairytale!!!! and whenever someone talks to you, you always have to make the subject about you! and if it changes you put up an angry face, and quickly changes the subject back to you!
and if people tell you "come on, you can't do that, you can't do everything you want" her answer is.. "well yes, I can" .. OMG!! YOU ARE SOOO FREAKING ANNOYING!! and you complain ALL THE TIME! there is nothing you can be happy about, even though it's been a good day at work, you have to pull out the bad things and talk about and make everything about your job to something bad. seriously, I can't understand why anyone likes you?
you live at our place, but do you do anything at all? NO NO NO!! you sit on your ass, get free food and don't have to pay anything for living here, and still, all we hear is your complaining about how cruel life is, only to you, and how you negver start anything, you are always the victim, and how you always have to be right, even though you are as stupid as a fucking door! no wait, I door has more braincells than you!!!!!!!!! I HATE YOU FREAKING MUCH I JUST WANT YOU TO GO AWAY AND LIVE YOUR LIFE SOMEWHERE ELSE!!!

why do you have to be my brothers fiancé?